~ Scripts ~
By John R. Ballew, M.S.
Copyright 2005 all rights reserved
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Isn’t it interesting how certain situations just push our buttons? We are coasting along just fine with
that new boyfriend, then he makes a remark we interpret as criticism, and all of a sudden we are
filled with self-doubt. Or your best friend is 5 minutes late for lunch and you are certain he’s not
taking your friendship seriously. Or three months into dating and you start to feel smothered and
have the urge to flee for your life.
What’s going on?
Sometimes there is an obvious reason why we are feeling the way we are, but other times, our
reactions may seem as if they are coming from out of left field. When we allow ourselves to become
intimate with another person we open up in ways that allow old hurts to arise. Not only old hurts
from other romantic relationship; many of these hurts are really old, coming from days when we
were very young and trying to figure out how this big, strange world worked.
Our minds hate and fear not knowing how the world works, so they work overtime to fill in the
blanks with “best guesses.” In the absence of other data, if the same thing happens to us more
than once, the mind may generalize and leap to the assumption that when x happens, y follows.
This happens most often to the very young, when we are impressionable and vulnerable. Not
surprisingly, many of these early important relationships involve our caregivers -- usually mom or
dad. This ability to generalize is an important part of how human beings learn. Unfortunately, in
relationships generalization can lead us to make wrong assumptions. We find ourselves almost on
automatic pilot -- acting out what some call a “life script.”
A life script is a bit like a script in a play or movie. The players aren’t free agents, but instead act
out the words and ideas someone else has written for them.
If your relationship script is such that falling in love leads later to feeling alone and abandoned, you’
ll likely find it very hard to simply enjoy the connection with another. Instead, you’ll likely be waiting
for the other shoe to drop. If you had a mother who repeatedly told you, “Don’t get angry with me,
young man!” when you were 3 and 4 and 5, you may find it hard to express your feelings when
something angers you later in life.
Relationships bring all these scripts to the surface, which is one reason why they can be so
challenging. That’s also the reason why relationships are places that can help us heal the old
wounds and grow as human beings.
A script need not turn you into a victim who is doomed to repeat old patterns for the rest of his life.
You are not a robot; you can make choices. Becoming aware of patterns is the place to start.
These patterns have nothing to do with your partner; they are yours alone. (Of course, the guy
you are dating or in a relationship with has his own patterns and scripts.) Understand that you are
creating the reality of this relationship. You can learn to make other choices. Depending on the
nature of your old wounds, having this insight may be enough in itself to make changes, or doing
thing differently could be very difficult indeed. Don’t be afraid to seek help if you needed.
John R. Ballew, M.S., is a licensed professional counselor in private practice in Atlanta. He specializes in issues related to coming
out, sexuality and relationships, spirituality and career. He can be reached via the web at www.bodymindsoul.org or at (404) 874-
8536.
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