~ Unsafe Sex ~
By John R. Ballew, M.S.
Copyright 2005 all rights reserved
|
Statistics about HIV infection indicate that almost 20 years into the Era of AIDS, gay men -- especially
young gay men -- continue to have unsafe sex and to become infected with HIV. What’s that all about?
Sexual desire is rarely a rational thing. Our mind tell us one thing; our libido tells us another. We
attend that safer sex class and decide what level of risk we’re comfortable with. But there is other
information, too: what about that article we read that seemed to say AIDS wasn’t any worse than
diabetes or something? It’s confusing. Then we find ourselves in a sexual situation and find it’s not so
easy to make those choices. We’ve had a bit too much to drink, or we’re really horny, or the guy we
are with is especially hot. Whatever the reason, we find we’ve “slipped,” and now we’re anxious.
It’s useful to make a distinction between “unprotected” and “unsafe.” Sex can be unprotected and still
be safe if you and your partner are both without any STD and engage in no risky behavior with
anyone else. The problem here is trust. Are you comfortable betting your health on your ability to be
honest with your partner and to trust him completely? What if one of you has sex outside the
relationship -- can you talk about it?
It’s also important to make a distinction between the fantasy of risky sex and reality. To fantasize
about no-holds-barred sex can be an exploration of passion, eroticism and intimacy. Nothing wrong
with that.
When one activist was asked why gay men continue to have unsafe sex his answer was simple: “It’s
warm, it’s wet and it’s intensely human.” Using a condom every time sounds like a great strategy. It’s
just very difficult to follow 100 percent of the time.
Each of us must assess what level of risk he’s comfortable with. Some men decide that smoking isn’t
too risky for them, others wouldn’t consider it. Some men ride their motorcycles without a helmet;
others wouldn’t ride a bike at all. Some men will decide that they wouldn’t have oral sex with a partner
without using a condom, others will decide that anal sex without ejaculation is acceptable risk to them.
If you find yourself making decisions about what’s OK based solely on how hot your potential partner
is, or how horny you are, or how high you are, it’s time to level with yourself. What circumstances
cause you to want risky sex? When have you actually engaged in sex you’ve decided previously is too
risky for you? When you wanted to have unsafe sex and didn’t, what stopped you?
Good sex is sex that you feel good about both when you are having it and afterwards. If you find
yourself in situations that cause you to feel bad about yourself or about what you are doing, it’s time
to take a look at what you are doing and to recommit yourself to sex that is both hot and healthy.
John R. Ballew, M.S., is a licensed professional counselor in private practice in Atlanta. He specializes in issues related to coming out,
sexuality and relationships, spirituality and career. He can be reached via the web at www.bodymindsoul.org or at (404) 874-8536.
© Copyright 2005 John R. Ballew, M.S. All rights reserved.
The BRC extends thanks to John R. Ballew for his gracious consent to display and archive his contributions on this site. Any duplication
in any form is prohibited without express written permission of the author and is a copyright violation